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Falling Out of Love
Have you ever fallen out of love? I have. It wasn’t very alluring and easy to go through
I was very fond of her. One might say I have… I had a crush on her. I did for some time and that small-time frame was one of the most beautiful of them that I have spent. If I were to define what a crush is I would simply say loving someone who you know you would never be with, but you hope you would. So yeah, I had a crush on this girl and everything about her made me feel melted or something. It’s hard to describe that feeling.
For some time I was in love with her smile, eyes, the way she talks, and everything, and she was the perfect woman in my eyes. At least for a few weeks. As I have said earlier everything perfect going to get so badly fucked up in the end. As I get to know more about her, her hopes, dreams, life, the ones she loves, especially that I felt like an asshole, not that I complain about it. But it’s unfair to be in love with someone who’s in love with someone else. Because at some point it’s going to eat you alive for not being able to act upon your feelings.
So, I gradually fell out of love with her. As I did, I began to notice flaws about her which made me wonder, how true is the saying “Love is blind”. It’s not exactly we don’t notice those flaws, we proactively refuse to accept them as our minds are shrouded with all the good about them. And when there’s no love, there will be the truth, whether you like it or not.
I want to be so sure again before I fall in love, that I will be able to love someone at their worst. If I can’t love someone at their worst and help them up to be better, then I don’t deserve to be in love with them at all.
